I need to start!

I stop writing like a long time a go. what is the main reason? Is it due to no time oe jut becos laziness. Kinda lazy actually.

I still can't adjust my life here at Jeddah. It is hard. It is very hard. Before, I was an active girl, I can drive and so on. But here, you need a driver to drive you around. Part from that, there are not much Islamic classes here compared to Malaysia. Wait, wait let me adjust the wording here. Not much islamic classes conducted in English here compared to Malaysia.

In Malaysia islamic classes are available almost everyday and everywhere. But not here. This is one of the things that I regret so much when I moved here. Islamic classes is when i refresh my soul and emaan. I know I know I can get it everywhere, through online classes YouTube. But that is not my style of learning. I love going to the classes, seeing the syeikh's face, rushing and late to the class. It is like you work so hard to get the knowledge. You get what I mean?

Here, or maybe actually after you finished your uni life it is up to you. No one really says anything to you so on. You must do it by urself. And push urself for it.

Other thing is volunteering. There are not many NGOs here that provide a place for me to volunteer. And i cant find any poor people here. Lol! Okay okay. I found one or two in front of shops and hosps so on, but it i different from Malaysia. I just dont know where I can go and deliver my help.

I just dont know where to start.

And I realised something, I dont really achieved anything professionally yet since I last working at Petronas. I really need to prove myself that I am not a lazy douchebag. Lol. I feel that I am super lazy person. Eventho yeah I cook, clean, feed sara and so on stilllll Im feel that I want to do something professionally.

Just anything!

Gonna start writing everyday InsyaAllah.